Why Wilderness Tribe?

What you are walking through matters.

I wish I could go back and tell that to 2015 myself. In 2015 I was on an airplane coming back from my one year anniversary with Vince (my husband) and I started to feel nauseous and faint. I laid down, they gave me oxygen and a banana, I was alright in the end. But in a moment I thought I could lose my life. I can actually say now that God saved it. Over the next 12 months I experienced severe panic attacks, social anxiety, and overwhelming fear. But through every single moment of those 12 months God broke me in all the right places. He broke the parts of my heart that thought I had a handle on life, that were too important to me for his hands to touch and scared to be exposed. He made me small so He could be big. So I could know my humanity and my heavenly being is beautiful to him. So I could learn I am worth fighting for. So I could learn I actually do not lack a thing. But I have been given everything. Every good and perfect thing. Everything I could dream of. I have. And He’s not a tease. 

In the breaking, I came alive. All the self sufficiency, perfectionism, and bitterness fell away and what remained was my beauty, my trust and my true self. I am still new at believing my true self is worth sharing with the world. 

But that’s what the wilderness tribe is for me (and for vince).

It is our gift to the world. Our unedited, true story of what it looks like for us to fall in love with Jesus through it all (even the wilderness).

And we want you to come with us. Because we know we aren't alone in this.

Because it is STUNNING. Not just in the end but in every single moment.

Stunning in every decision made to get out of bed and get dressed when we felt depressed or danced when we actually wanted to binge watch the office or we cried for eight days in a row and chose to celebrate it because allowing ourselves to break down and let God hold us instead of shutting down and powering through was actually the bravest thing we could have done. 

I don’t believe I walked through those 12 months just for me, my marriage and my future kids. I believe what I walked through (and what you are walking through) means something and is intrinsically and uniquely valuable to the world around us. So let’s own our stories, dig our heels in and sing, shout, dance it out for the world to hear and see! Even if we’re in the middle of it! How the world groans for something genuine, unpolished, real and wonderful from our lives in. Let’s be brave enough to share it with them.